So recently it has been made clear to me that I am, for a lack of a better word; stubborn.
I don’t want to admit it, but when two or more are gathered in unison, truth is amongst.
: refusing to change your ideas or to stop doing something; unreasonably or perversely unyielding
: difficult to handle, manage,treat or deal with, remove, etc.
Nobody likes working with people who always want their way, their ideas put forward or who think their proposition is best.
Suddenly I’m so self-aware of how I refuse to back out of what I want, even if it’s at the expense of someone else. Which is why I’m blessed with friends who tell me the truth when I’m being selfish and need to deflate and make a better decision.
Lately I’ve felt restricted and very limited in my influence and purpose. As if someone has put a lid on how far I can go. It seems like I’m doing everything I feel I should be doing, and yet, there’s a
donkeySumi-shaped barrier right above my head.
God cannot use someone who will not submit to Him. He’ll very often use ways and measures that go against human nature and intentions. Trust and submission go hand in hand. Just like how stubbornness and pride go hand in hand. I cannot fully surrender and submit myself to someone I don’t trust.
A donkey that isn’t broken will bite anyone who comes near his head and kick whoever approaches his rear. You will have a hard time getting a donkey to do anything. If he hasn’t been broken yet.
I think it’s time to kneel, surrender and present a back willing to be broken before a Hand who has the best in store. The process is painful to endure but produces a sacrifice more useful than a wild animal.
But My people did not listen to My voice; Israel would not submit to Me.
So I gave them over to their stubborn hearts,Psalms 81:11-12