If you don't take care, you'll end up losing. Losing your health, your relationships, your money, your assets, your time, your virtue; you name it. As I was waxing my car, I asked myself, "Why am I taking such good care of this car?" I never cared before. Why now? Why was I suddenly nicer [...]
Category: If it wasn't for humanity I'd be perfect.
Done is Better Than Perfect
The reality keeps growing. That I feel overwhelmed. I feel stupid. Useless. Inadequate. Incompetent. I feel like a complete failure. A failure in my work. In my finances. In my mind. In my emotions. With my parents. With my God. With men. With friends. Disappointed with myself. Right now, I feel like a failure in [...]
Tears For Food, Sorrow For Water
If you want to know the true nature of a person, turn the heat up. Dr Neal Patterson Parental Discretion Advised. I've been in a funk. I don't know if anyone else has noticed. The reason for it, doesn't matter. Because dwelling on things I cannot change has proved superfluous. What matters more than anything, [...]
Once A Stripper, Always A Stripper
I was at class today and one of the girls was singing the theme song from the a certain movie. I remembered something my brother told me, the main actress from that movie used to be a porn star. Now I found that like just 2 minutes ago, that that isn't in fact true, but even though I [...]
The Quick Brown Fox
I want the answer. I want the answer to the why's. I want the answers to the how's. But it looks like I'm getting neither. There's a story about Israeli slaves kidnapped from their families forced to work in the rural turquoise mines between Egypt and Mount Sinai. The slaves were beaten and tortured and [...]
Rumour Has It
Okay I have the most delicious piece of news. Did you hear? Someone close to me did something scandalously juicy and now everything within me seems to brim over with the desire to spill the beans to a close friend on the person without stopping for a second to think that gossiping tears friendships apart. [...]
Neon Run 2012 Breakdown
Sigh. Thinking of: Discipline.
Order in the Court!
Judge not. There were two women who went to church. As they bowed at the altar, one said, "Lord, I thank You I'm not like these other women, the women who sleep around, the women who drink excessively, the women who cheat on their husbands, the women who are obsessed with material things or the [...]
Who Let The Dogma Out? Part I
A few Sundays ago Pastor Ryan spoke about offences in the church which brought to light a bad habit of mine. A tiny praxis. An idiot-syncrasy I can't seem to shake off. I don't think it's always been ingrained in me, rather that I never dealt with it thoroughly. Assumption a.k.a the 8th deadly sin. [...]
Once bitten, twice high.
When I was in school, I wasn't allowed to touch the internet to play games on schooldays. But of course, out of rebellion, I would. Then after playing my online games I would go to the 'Internet History' and erase the last two hours I had spent on Archie.com flipping burgers for Jughead. It was [...]
