I didn’t wake up today thinking, “I think I’ll quit my job today.”
But that’s what happenned.
4 months ago when I took this job, I felt so happy. So sure I had landed the best job in the world. Hot bosses. Good work. Fancy schmancy office. My own computer. Good environment. Fairly adequate pay and hot bosses. Sure, it was far from home, but at the time, it felt worth it. 4 months ago I felt I had just made the best decision of the year by accepting the offer.
After 2.5 months, Doubt came knocking on my door. And with him he brought Uncertainty.
Where did it go wrong?
Could I have done things differently? Handled situations differently?
If this was the job for me, why was there frustration towards the end?
If this was the job for me, why was there relief when I walked out the door today?
I remember fasting and praying in 2010 for my first job. I prayed I would get the job God had set apart for me. That it would be a good job.
That it would last.
Why didn’t it last? Did I screw up? Did God know I was going to screw up? If He did why didn’t He stop me? Did I just single-handedly ruin what could have possibly been the BEST job ever?
I’m just glad life goes on.
I’m not saying that I have this all together, that I have it made. But I am well on my way, reaching out for Christ, who has so wondrously reached out for me. Friends, don’t get me wrong: By no means do I count myself an expert in all of this, but I’ve got my eye on the goal, where God is beckoning us onward—to Jesus. I’m off and running, and I’m not turning back.
Tonight, as You hold my hand, I want You to know I trust You with ALL my heart, soul and mind. Though I don’t understand why this is happening or what’s my next step, I trust You’ve got me close and You ain’t gonna screw me over.
So as I leave this job, what lessons am I taking with me?
1) Details are very important.
2) Be faithful in the little things.
3) Be proactive and take initiative in your workplace not just so your bosses see your effort but because in everything you do, do it as if you were doing it for Jesus.
4) Don’t water or sing to plastic plants.
Thinking of: The Next Step, Eric Clapton’s Layla and my very supportive friends and family 🙂