Baygon Sniffer

I knew a girl once who said when she was younger, she tried to poison herself whenever she didn’t get her way. She’d throw a tantrum, threaten to kill herself, run into the kitchen crying, grab a can of Baygon, spray it into the air and sniff the “poison” in front of her parents to show she meant business.

My parents would’ve opened a can of whoop-a** on me if I pulled anything half that stupid but that’s besides the point. Pastor asked an interesting question today:

If God didn’t answer your prayers, how would you respond?

Answer: Cry myself to sleep for the rest of my life.

I’ll admit, I have ALOT of prayers. For salvation, healing, my own career, my future hoosband, money, fame, car, the list is infinite, really.

What if not a single one of those prayers were answered?

Does it mean God doesn’t love me if He doesn’t answer my prayers within the allotted time I have so graciously given Him?

Christians have this bad habit of setting conditions in which to allow God to express His love.

Ps. Ryan

Before I start sniffing any Baygon, I must first ask WHY God isn’t answering those prayers?

 When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spend what you get on your pleasures.

James 4:3

But is asking for someone else’s healing a wrong motive? Yet millions of people die daily from diseases. Heck, let’s not go so far, one of my best friend’s sister passed away from cancer a few years back. Was it wrong motives to pray a 17 year-old girl would live to see her own wedding day? Which brings me to my next point.

The second thing I have to understand is God always has a better plan. You know in Scooby-Doo, Velma will always have a plan to capture the villains but nothing usually goes according to it so they have to improvise? Well there is no Plan B with Jesus.

8 “For my thoughts are not your thoughts, 
   neither are your ways my ways,” 
            declares the LORD. 
9 “As the heavens are higher than the earth, 
   so are my ways higher than your ways 
   and my thoughts than your thoughts.

Isaiah 55:8-9

The third thing I must come to terms with is ‘No’ now is not ‘No’ forever. Delaying is not denying.

Not answering your prayers immediately may be the best thing that can happen to your life.

Ps Ryan.

There is something to learn from each season in my life. The faster I learn, the faster I can move on to the next phase.

It made me think, what is the most precious prayer need to me? Have I completely surrendered it to God, regardless of the outcome?

How can I put my most precious in God’s hands if I am unwilling to let go?

Inspired by Pastor Ryan Foo.

I know I throw manic tantrums every so often because I’m frustrated. Frustrated that nothing in the matters of my heart are going my way. But though they are not going my way, they are going YOUR way, and that’s what is important to me. Would I be happy if You never answered any of my prayers? Nope. I’d be lying if I said I’m totally fine with that. But I want to trust You, that You always have my best interest at heart. And anyway, if You insist on not answering any of my prayers, at least I know You’ll be the one by my bed-side every night mopping up my frustration and tears.


Another sidenote and valid question:

Thinking of: Adele’s Set Fire to the Rain, placing them all in Your hands, hoping I get raptured, how I have the most amazing leaders in church, how it’s suddenly so much more easier to inconvenience myself for you, Christina Milian’s AM to PM and Scooby-Doo.

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