I was at class today and one of the girls was singing the theme song from the a certain movie. I remembered something my brother told me, the main actress from that movie used to be a porn star. Now I found that like just 2 minutes ago, that that isn’t in fact true, but even though I didn’t know it to be fact my mouth thought to say it to her anyway at the time. And this girl said something profoundly intriguing, “Does that mean if she was a porn star, she’ll always be one?”
Two things immediately came to my mind:
1) I am SO judgemental!
2) What were my intentions in saying that?
Let’s just call a spade a spade. Everyone associates a porn star negatively, so obviously when I said it, my intent was malicious; to demoralize the character of a person I had never, and prolly won’t ever meet. But that wasn’t the worst part, it was that the judgment was made based on her past.
Which then brought me to self-reflection, a few days ago my mother was lecturing me and I remember shouting at her, “Stop reminding me of my mistakes, just tell me I can only get better from here on out!”
Nobody likes being held to their past, especially if it was tainted.
This has to stop, the hating and venom-spitting. I must be better than this.
For with the judgment you pronounce you will be judged, and with the measure you use it will be measured to you.
Note to self: Put down the stone, you have no right to cast it.
Thinking of: The long day ahead tomorrow, repenting from a judgemental spirit and ALL THE HAZE CHOKING ME!!!!!