Done is Better Than Perfect

October 10, 2013

The reality keeps growing.

That I feel overwhelmed. I feel stupid. Useless. Inadequate. Incompetent.

I feel like a complete failure.

A failure in my work. In my finances. In my mind. In my emotions. With my parents. With my God. With men. With friends. Disappointed with myself.

Right now, I feel like a failure in life. I have arrived at that point where I am no longer interested to pursue breathing if it didn’t come so easily.

I hate this feeling. But I want to remember this moment.

Because whatever the reality, the truth is entirely different.

I know because I can admit these things aloud, the fighter in me will refuse to stay this way.

I will not stay overwhelmed.

I will not stay stupid.

I will not continue to be useless, inadequate or incompetent.

I am okay with failing. But I will not stay a failure.

Because of how I get out of this, many will know I am Yours and Yours alone, and that You are the only One who can save me.

“Do not fear, for I have redeemed you;
    I have summoned you by name; you are Mine.
When you pass through the waters,
    I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers,
    they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire,
    you will not be burned;
    the flames will not set you ablaze.

[…]

“Forget the former things;
    do not dwell on the past.
See, I am doing a new thing!
    Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the wilderness
    and streams in the wasteland.

Isaiah 43:1-2, 18-19