I am a ‘Yes’ woman.
I love jumping at opportunities.
Rock Climbing? Yes.
Sky Diving? Yes.
Jumping on a plane to Dubai? Yes.
I always thought being spontaneous was one of my best qualities.
Then why do I now feel that spontaneity has too high a price?
In this last year I have made a few spontaneous decisions that left me emotionally scarred and my wallet a little emptier.
AT THAT MOMENT. It feels good. It feels right. And then reality sinks in.
I don’t actually have that much money. I don’t think I can do everything I said I would for that event. I don’t think I actually want to pursue this.
That’s the key word, then. That I didn’t think. I just did. The regret that follows is making it a little hard to get up, brush it off and walk on.
Am I too old to be impulsive? Am I too immature to scream agreement without ANY form of premeditation?
Yes. Yes, I am.
Impulsive and spontaneous decisions have cost me too much this year.
I cannot question “Why God weren’t You there to tell me to stop and say ‘No’?!” because in the heat of the moment, His will is clouded by my poor judgment.
‘The truth is, God doesn’t always move the clouds to show us which way to go. Instead, God asks us to be faithful, to make choices with our lives that honor Him. He asks us to get our priorities in order, to turn away from worldly standards of success and achievement and to bend our will to that of our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. And as we follow His example, walking in His ways, we begin to think more like Him. Paul tells us in Romans 12:2: “Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—His good, pleasing and perfect will.”
We will make our share of mistakes in life decisions. At times, we will undoubtedly go when we should stay and stay when we should go. But the promise that God gives us is that no matter where we go—to a new state, to a new job, to a new stage of family life—our God goes with us.’
I am choosing to learn from my mistakes, pay the price of responsibility (literally) and mature into someone who doesn’t take the bull by the horns without first sedating it.
I officially declare that I am
at least going to pray and wait 5 seconds before saying yes no longer going to make impromptu decisions.
Jesus, I have finally heard You loud and clear. Seek Your will, live with purpose and make wise decisions that benefit the body, mind and soul.
‘Tis time to grow up, Sumi. Grow up.
Thinking of: How I’m not angry at you but disappointed at your deception, Zedd feat. Foxes’ Clarity, Five For Fighting’s What If, OneRepublic’s Counting Stars, Ke$ha’s Crazy Kids, No means no and how RM210 is a small price to pay to grow up. It could’ve been worse.