The Biggest Loser

If you don’t take care, you’ll end up losing.

Losing your health, your relationships, your money, your assets, your time, your virtue; you name it.

As I was waxing my car, I asked myself, “Why am I taking such good care of this car?” I never cared before.

Why now?

Why was I suddenly nicer to my mom, suddenly not indulging in the whimsical McDonald suppers, suddenly thinking twice about spending RM180 on a theme park, suddenly not procrastinating, suddenly dressing a little differently?

Then I admitted to myself; it didn’t happen suddenly. I’ve lost too much by not caring. Not caring has cost me more than I’d like to say.

There are those people who look after all these things so they don’t lose. Fear took precedence over bad choices. I’m not one of them. I’m the one that learnt to take care because of what I had lost as a result of my apathy towards the things in my life that should have reasonable priority.

I had to experience a little loss before I experienced gratitude.

Maybe losing wasn’t part of the initial plan. But you’re still here, aren’t you?ย Don’t wait to lose more. Learn fast, I say. And as time goes on, you’ll learn to lose less.

My doctor said we can’t choose where we come from but we can choose where we go from there. I know it’s not all the answers but it was enough to start putting these pieces together.

Charlie. The Perks of Being a Wallflower.

On a side note:ย 

I think you deserved so much more. You shouldn’t have settled for less.

Thinking of: How things will change, 56964, Logan Lerman in The Perks of Being a Wallflower, Miley Cyrus, World War Z and Pochill’s Streets of Mexico.